For one of our Chiang Mai excursions we visited a rice paddy to, well, learn how to plant rice. It was here that we also kicked off our program by making intensions with our fellow TESOL classmates. We were all given a piece of wood and were instructed to write something that we wanted to let go of, something we hoped to leave behind when we moved to Thailand.
I chose anxiety.
While I knew I was behind on this post, it also felt apt as I begin my second week of teaching. I've begun to focus on small victories and am trying to embrace new daily culture as best as I can, but I can't help but still feel anxiety as things change last minute, as the rain changes when I can and can't go places and slowly, I feel like I'm losing more and more control.
Though my intentions may be good, change is a difficult thing. For those out there in new environments, testing new interests or those starting over, keep reaching and embrace the struggle.
Even when you struggle, you're still in the fight.